I have goals.

However nerdy they may be... they're still goals, damn it. For instance, my goals for today were to read 2 more volumes of death note and to ding 70 on WoW. I did both of those. ^_^ .....Damn, here I am ranting about how big of a dork I am. I HAVE GOT TO STOP THIS CRAP! Wheeeee, but I'm SO excited. I'm only 10 away from the big 8-0. It's a big 10 though. Shit, there I go again.

I've been drawing a lot lately too. I've gotten SO much better at poses in the past few weeks. They're not amazing or anything, but they're a FUCK TON better than what they looked like a month ago. And for that, I am proud. :D

I have this whole week off of work because of the silly February break thing. I wonder what I'll do. >.>;

LoveLoveLove,

<3L

...Or did I just blow your mind?

Last night, I had a dream that someone I know came to my rescue with a sword. It was like the "knight in shining armor" thing... except the armor wasn't shiny at all. He DID look bad ass though and was quite nice to me after the whole issue had been dealt with. I knew who it was, I just couldn't see the face. So the identity of this guy remains a mystery.

...And then I woke up and it's Valentine's Day. Woot? Nah, not a 'woot' occasion. I've never really had any use for Valentine's Day. It's a religious holiday that has been turned into a hallmark holiday. I'm not religious and I don't have money to be spending on a special someone that doesn't exist. And while I used to be bitter about all of the above, I've become quite apathetic about the whole thing. In my eyes, today is just another Sunday that I'll probably spend the entirety of playing WoW. If it should just so happen to include chocolate because of the "holiday"...? Well, who am I to turn that down? LOL.

OH! I went to my cousin's wedding last night. It was pretty fun. Catching up with family I haven't seen in a LONG time was awesome. My cousin Brian and his new wife Colleen looked amazing (especially Colleen's dress!) and everyone was pretty drunk by the end. And the wedding party favors, or whatever they're called; is a mini-cocktail shaker, a packet of drink mix, and a tiny bottle of Jose Cuervo. LOL AMAZING.

Anyway, I'm off.

Happy Valentine's Day?

<3 L

PS: Best shot I've ever had = Cafe Patron.

You put your body in the coffin where you sleep.

Yeah... So, it snowed. Like all effing day. Apparently, the storm we're having right now is the really cold equivalent to a hurricane. Awesome. Also, lightning-snow was rumored. I wish I lived somewhere that I could see the lightning in the snow. I bet it's real pretty. Though I don't get how it could thunder while it's snowing. To my knowledge, thunder/lightning has something to do with the heat and stuff. (Hence all the horrific thunder/lightning storms over the summer.) Of course, I'm under-educated in the realm of meteorology... So what would I know?

Anyway, because of this snow I had to cancel my physical therapy appointment for today. I played WoW instead. (SHOCKED?! ...Yeah, me either.) I also don't have work tomorrow because the North Shore Central School District is closed because of the massive snow-dump we got. That part kinda sucks, cause I could totally use the money from working. Meh.

I dyed my hair today. I love the smell of freshly dyed hair. It's comforting to me for some odd reason.

I've started sketching again. Stupid goofy doodles that aren't much good, in my opinion. It just feels good to put the shit that goes on in my imagination onto paper so that other people can see. Even though, to be honest, I tend to shy away from letting people look at my sketchbook. /shrug.

I love this song/video.


This entry was chock-full of nothingness. And I said I'd be writing more about important stuff... HAH!

<3 Laurasaur

Beautiful and Strange

I was up until about 2:30 in the morning... And honestly, I don't know how I'm functioning right now. What I do know is that I'm dealing with this stress like a champ. Like a really, REALLY nerdy champ. Video game catharsis ftw.

I don't have much else to say because my life has taken a turn for the stressful and boring, and I refuse to go into pointlessness about my WoW progress.

Bleh, I'll try to write more interesting stuff soon for you non-existent readers. Lawl.

<3 Lauren LeStrange

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Now Playing: Mudvayne - Beautiful And Strange

You're listening to the sound of my breaking heart.

I'm stressed and I don't want to deal with any of it anymore. I am emotionally spent and being pulled in 50 different directions.

This needs to stop.

-LV-

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Now Playing: James Blunt - I Really Want You

My Life, According to Ani.

"It seems that different people have an idea of what I am, and what I should be. And then there's me."
-Ani DiFranco

That about sums it up.

Fuck this year, already.

2010 better step it's fucking game up.

Things that make me happy in 2010
- Walking.
- World of Warcraft.
- Seeing my friends & family.

Things that make me irate in 2010
- Asshole insurance companies.
- Rude people that work for NCC.
- NCC as a whole.
- The fact that this ankle business is STILL not done with.
- Lack of 2nd job.
- Douche bags.
- Not getting to go to see Lady Gaga because of the ankle business.
- Being stressed out over all of the above.


When is this shit gonna be over?

Dream Amnesia: Cured.

I've been having dreams about Underbog for the past like... 2 or 3 nights. I have to say, it's quite enjoyable.

Got my stitches out today. I'm basically DONE being broken. PT starts back up on Thursday. Woooooosh.

That's all for now.

<3Laurizzle

Dream Amnesia?!? AI Viewership?!? SAY IT ISN'T SO!!!

I haven't had a dream in weeks. That's not to say I haven't dreamt... I just haven't remembered any of them. That's strange. For me, anyway. If you know me at all, you know I always have these crazy freak ass dreams, that make you think 'what the fuck did she take before she went to sleep?' ... but not lately. I'm not gonna lie, I'm kinda disappointed. :( Oh well, hopefully this dream amnesia doesn't last long.

So, I've taken to watching American Idol this season. I know right? Never thought I'd see the day where I was actually excited for AI. Putting aside the smug reason I'm watching the show, I'm actually kind of enjoying it. I mean, the first few episodes are the auditions, and who can resist watching these horrific Hollywood hopefuls have their dreams crushed by the AI panel?-- who's to say I won't grow tired of Simon and his snarky remarks? (Alright, I didn't buy it either. Bring on the snark!!) I guess we'll see as the show progresses, how interested or disinterested I become with the whole thing.

Oh, and enjoy this. I know I did.



<3 Laurasaur

I was productive today!

I woke up this morning like someone had lit a fire under my ass. I don't know why, but I was COMPELLED to clean. And clean I did. Got my laundry figured out, changed my sheets, organized all the crap I've got, did a bit of decorating... And blah. I'm extremely tired now. I should say that I was in bed at like 9pm, fell asleep for a few hours, woke up, tried to go back to sleep and couldn't. So I played some WoW. /sigh

OH! And I saw miss Emily today. It was great times, catching up on our lives. I misseded her.

So um, not much to say, I think I'm gonna get some sleep, finally.

~Laurasaur.

What's that thing called? Walking?!

...THAT'S RIGHT!
I can walk!
...Well, sort of. Sometimes it hurts and I have to sit down and elevate my foot. Also, I've got a weird gait pattern. /sigh. BUT! I'm getting there! After about 3 months of no/limited mobility I CAN KINDA, SORTA MOVE AROUND ON MY OWN.

Surgery was yesterday. I could tell you the whole story, complete with me waking up and being disoriented for an hour after surgery -- but I'll spare you the boring details. It wasn't even that painful when I woke up. It felt like growing pains, and now the only hurt I've got is the stitches and the wound. Everything else feels fine. :) Yay!

I get to go back to work at the boys and girls club on the 25th && I'm starting at Red Mango, prolly sooner than that. Still gotta talk to Christian.

Life is good.
Imma go play some WoW now.
Lata gataz.

<3Laurasaur.

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Now Playing: Green Day - Viva La Gloria!

I'm so official, all I need is a whistle.

Um... hai.

In terms of today:
+ Got a bomb ass coat from Sami today. Also gotz a pretty scarf/gloves set from Target. /sigh I loves that place.
+ Signs of life on KatDennings.com! Alright, I lurk the FUCK out of her twitter, but she posted a pic on KD and it was a shop of her and Christopher Walken. This makes me happy because it just confirms YET ANOTHER reason why we should be bff.
- I get really pissy when people wake me up from a perfectly good nap. I get even pissier when people I don't like wake me up. GRRRRR.
+/- Surgery in like 3 days. I'm excited but kinda nervous.
+ I just dinged 50 on Destery in WoW. :D [/nerd]

kay bai.

<3 Laurasaur.


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Now Playing: Dark Oscillators - Nasty Jungle

Go ahead and hate the world girl, you earned the right.

5 days til surgery. w00t.

Happy fuckin' New Year.

<3 Your friendly neighborhood Laurasaur

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Now Playing: Atmosphere - Dreamer

Delivering a Kick to the Nuts of 2009

Kay, so that stupid allergic reaction is gone, but now my lips are chapped as hell, and I have to apply chapstick (100% natural lip butter... pfft.) like an addict. /sigh. SO ANNOYING.

Today I had pre-op testing for my surgery that's in a week. Lots of waiting around, answering questions, and being poked and prodded. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. So no complaints from me. My only issue with the whole thing was the snow that I had to travel through to get to the hospital. Seriously, Mother Nature? ::grumble grumble::

...ANYWAY! It's New Year's Eve!! Time to kick 2009 in the nuts and usher in 2010. Twenty-ten. Two-oh-One-oh. Otherwise known as: The Year of WIN.

Plans for 2010:
» Aesthetic make-overs galore. It's about time I make myself happy with myself. Ya digg?
» Get my CNA certification.
» Get a CNA job at a hospital or nursing/rehab facility.

Anything more than those three things I listed are just extra. Like, it'd be nice to get myself a car, go on a nice vacation, or I don't know... be in a decent relationship? Lol. But my MAIN focus is making myself happy. I can let those opportunities find me along the way. And if they don't? ...No biggie. So um... I guess here's where I talk about my resolutions?

In 2010 I will...
» Take more chances. I'm also going to stop wasting time making decisions that don't benefit ME, but rather spare the feelings of others. 2010 is about LAUREN.
» Stop worrying so much. I spent SO much time in 2009 worrying about "what-if". In 2010, the what-if's are gone. It's not healthy to worry about dumb shit.
» Stop taking things to heart. I spent a lot of 2009 being sore about guys that made me feel like shit about myself, because they didn't like me. I know I have my self loathing moments, but for what it's worth, I like myself. In 2010, no one is gonna make me feel like shit about myself.

There's definitely more than that, but who knows if I'll even stick to those?

Either way, I hope everyone has a happy and healthy New Year. PLEASE BE SAFE.
<3 Laurasaur

PS:
»» I TOTES JUST FELL IN LOVE WITH CaptainValor ON YOUTUBE ««
Go check out his stuff. It's all in ASL, but the songs he translates are fuckin amazing. AND if you're an ASL nerd like I am (which you're probably not) he also posts the glosses to his English>ASL interpretation videos. It's very convenient for fellow interpreters.

TIS ALL.

HAPPY almostNEW YEAR!!!


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Now Playing: Hellogoodbye - Oh, It Is Love

The Annual Year End Re-Cap: 2009 Edition

I can't believe I've had this blog for a year. I don't think I've ever had a blog that I've kept up with STEADILY for an entire year. Yay for finally committing to a blog. P: ANYWAY, on to the point of this blog...

I didn't get to do one of these last year because if you remember, I was otherwise indisposed. -_-; AHNEYWAIZ -- Here's what made 2009 rock AND what made 2009 suck.

T3H SUXX0Rz:

Boy Issues:
Started off the year being depressed because my ex left NY. Acted like that was the end of the world. Alright, alright -- I was pretty torn up about it. As silly as it was. Whatevs. Then shit got progressively worse when he broke up with me a month later. 3 months of sadness. Bleh, whatever. Then I fell for a boy in the army who talked me up and down about all this bullshit that in the end never came to be because he dropped me like a bad habit. Ouch. I swear, I set myself up for this shit.

Immunodeficiency
I was sick A LOT in 2009. Probably cause I was all distressed over bullshit. THAT, or I was paying back some SERIOUS karmic debt because of my Swine Flue jokes. Either way, it wasn't a good year for my immune system.


Mom's diverticulitis
She was sick for like 3 weeks, in bed, and thought it was an ovarian cyst that ruptured. Finally, I made her go to the hospital because she ran a fever. Turns out she could have died if she hadn't gone to the ER when she did. An emergency surgery, 5 months of recovery, and ANOTHER surgery later, Momma-dukes is still not 100%.


The Infamous Ankle Incident
Well, DUH. Of course this would be on the list. You all know the story. Mid-October, I'm in my dance class bustin moves... I end up bustin my ankle and it all goes downhill from there. I needed surgery, and stayed in the hospital for 4 days. Had to withdraw from school. Had to take off from work. And here it is, almost January and I'm still not working.

Nassau Fucked Me. HARD.
Alright, if you need a reminder of this, just read an entry or two down. I'm not recapping.


TEH R0xXx0Rz!!1!!1!one!1!:

Flo-Rida
Spent a week in Sunny Florida with the NSBGC crew. It was awesome. Lots of fun, lots of laugh, lots of sunburn. Not much more to say. It was really nice.

Awesome Grades
I kicked the piss out of the Spring 09 Semester. Three A's and two B+'s. Fuckin' right. GPA hath been brought up to 3.75 or summat like that.

Red Mango
(Can you tell I'm REALLY reaching for stuff to go on the good list?) Red Mango is the shit and I was introduced to it by Sami this summer. Haha. :)

Excellent Music
One thing I can say about 2009 was that I downloaded a SHIT TON of amazing music. My ears were ecstatic this year. OH! And I saw WEEZY in concert!!! :3

WoW
I finally caved and started playing World of Warcraft... and I haven't offed myself in shame, because it's awesome. I'm enjoying myself. And I made some new friends that also play WoW that are pretty neat as well.

--

And that, my friends, was my year.
As you can see, it was pretty much a DUD.
Here's to 2010 being INTENSELY more satisfying.

-Laurasaur

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Now Playing: Pearl Jam - Even Flow

You'll shoot your eye out!

Ahh, a Christmas Day spent watching "A Christmas Story" is a Christmas Day well spent, in my eyes.

Not much to report since there's been nothing going on. But I will say this: We should all be thankful for the simple things in life. A roof over our heads... Family and friends... Lips that aren't suffering from a horrible allergic reaction...

Alright, that last one was a little personal. But omfg... You have no idea what this feels like. Never again shall I use softlips. This is torture. Bleh. And it's not even like anyone can SEE the little bumpies that I've got. They're blending into the color of my lips. HOWEVER, I'm self conscious about them. And aside from that, they're SO uncomfortable. D: It's calm down a bit from last night... My hopes are that tomorrow they'll be gone.

OH! And speaking of tomorrow! I'm gettin my glasses tomorrow!!!! :D FINALLY! I can rejoin the world of those with vision! This is probably the weirdest thing I've ever been excited about. /shrug.

Anyway... With that last pathetic note, I bid thee adieu.

Hope everyone's holiday was wonderful!
Who am I kidding? No one reads this. LOL.


Your faithful HoHoHoe,
♥ Laurasaur


::edit::

Can't believe I almost forgot to post this!

This afternoon I made my own stop motion animation thingermabobber. I'm fairly impressed by it, because I wasn't sure if I'd actually be able to pull it off. But I did! Even if it is a bit messy. Oh wells! Um... Here ya go! :)

HOLY BALLS, BATMAN!

Yay for Christmastime fun. Went to the Annual Christmas Eve Get-Together with the Focker Family... Lots of fun. Except I didn't feel good at the end, and left early. Bleh.

I don't really have much to say right now.

Aside from saying DAMN YOU to the Softlips chapstick brand. Totes gave me an allergic reaction. Boo. :(

Oh, it's 12:03.
It's officially Christmas Day.
Technically. :P

Merry Christmas, lovies.

<3Lore-uhh-saur. :)

Fuck You Nassau, I'm not coming back.

So, I went on Banner last night to check my schedule and find out what day in January the Spring semester starts. Only I couldn't get to my schedule because it says I have a financial hold on my account. A financial hold. Makes NO FUCKING SENSE, since I have been receiving Financial Aid since Fall 2008. So I call up the Bursars office this morning, and was put on hold for 15 minutes before being hung up on by some cunt named Karen? Maybe Diane? Some generic douche-nozzle name. So, I call back, and after 25 minutes of conversation regarding my status as a student, being put on hold, and listening to her huff and puff as she navigated through the Banner system like only a blind man in a maze would... I get THIS shit dropped on me. Apparently during the Fall 2008 semester, my Pell went through late and I had to pay for school. I got reimbursed though. But here's the clincher. They sent me about $400 too much. Okay, fine. Now she tells me that I owe the entire sum of Fall 2009's tuition AS WELL AS tuition for Spring 2010. AND THEN she says there's nothing SHE can do for me (fucking DUH.) so she proceeds to tell me she'll be transferring my call to the Financial Aid department. She ends up transferring me to the BIOLOGY departments snide troll receptionist, who then transfers my call to the snot at the Info Kiosk. I finally get my call sent to the Financial Aid department... and the fucking place is busy all god damned day. Awesome.

So now, on top of having to write to the Dean of Students about my medical withdrawal, I also have to appeal to the President's refund committee, so that I am not held responsible for paying for this past semester, seeing as I was not able to complete it because of the bullshit that went on with my ankle. EXCELLENT. Another cluster-fuck of people not being able to tell me exactly what I've got to do to make things right. So excited.

I've reached my breaking point. I'm SO sick of the bullshit at NCC. It's not worth the wasted time or the wasted energy spent being pissed off. I will NOT be returning to that school as a student. The next time I'm on that campus will be to do 2 things:

1. Request my transcript for transfer to another college.
2. Cunt-punt Karen/Diane/Dickbutt so hard her head pops off.

And with that, I'm done bitching out Nassau. Though, considering the next few steps... this won't be the last you'll hear from me on the subject of good old NCC.

Peace, Rainbows and all that other happy bullshit.
<3Laurasaur.

Nice Work, Bone Daddy.

Holy balls, did it snow. I didn't bother to post pics of the snow because there really isn't much you can see in terms of depth, from the top of my tower... But according to Samantha, it was knee deep. Which put into terms of Lauren's height? The plow piles are WAY taller than me. Dayum. Lots of snow.

ANYWAY.

Went to the Bone Doc today... Got there 15 minutes early, got in 15 minutes late, got seen at about 4:50. Almost an hour of wasted time. BUT Bone Daddy says: My ankle looks amazing considering the bolt that's in place.

Also, he explained the surgery for me. It's REALLY not that invasive. Basically, I'll go to NSLIJ @ Glen Cove Hospital and do all my pre-screens, then when it's time, he'll HEAVILY sedate me, and use local anesthetic on the skin so that I don't feel shit. Using a fluoroscope (high intensity, instant x-ray) he'll make a small incision (about the width of a dime) and take the bolt out. He said I'll be in pain for a bit because of the bolt running through scar tissue and what-not (I'm getting percs!) but that within a week I'll be walking and fully functioning. (aka: Not attending dance classes, tyvm.)

And with that... It seems I have nothing more to say.

OH! Nothing, except for Wednesday being the 2nd Annual United Nations Christmas Party. Last year, Italy hosted, and it's rumored that this year Poland is hosting. Looks like it will be a success! Can't wait! :D

-Laurasaur
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Now Playing: Headhunterz - My Name Is

My sources say, "The road is clear and all street signs point the way."

Are you gonna stand around til 2012 AD?
What are you waiting for,
A certain shade of green?
I think I grew a gray watching you procrastinate.
What are you waiting for
A certain shade of green?

It's gonna snow a shitload tomorrow. Liiiike blizzard style. AWESOME! Eh, I'm not bitching. Not like I'm expected to go out in it anyway. I'm probably just gonna spend the day attempting to bake. Y'know how I roll.

Anyway! I want this:

Like really really REALLY effing badly.

It's the Sanyo Xacti CG10. 10.0 MP of pure sex. Hi Def video, 3" LCD screen, high quality audio, rechargable litho-ion battery, USB pictbridge direct transfer enabled... BASICALLY the video makers wet dream. In an affordable, aesthetically pleasing package. :) (It was also used in a few youtube campaigns.)

I know there's no chance in hell that I'm gonna get this for Christmas or anything so I'm just gonna save up for it myself. It'll be more gratifying when I buy it myself. Plus, it's really inexpensive, so I won't have to save up for it for like a bagillion years. It's ballin.

...In other news, I asked my mom for a new pair of glasses for Christmas this year. I lost mine back in liiike September or something and I've been going without ever since. Awesome.

Bleh, not much more to say.

Adieu,
Lulu


ps: This song is absolutely amazing.
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Now Playing: Incubus - Certain Shade of Green